Day 10: A Possible Zombie Apocalypse

Hello stranger,

I'll try not to sound too informal but... YAY, I made today's post. I got too caught up in watching 'Gran Torino' (now we're watching 'Letters To Iwa Juku' or something) and I was scared that I'd feel too tired again to make this post. Fortunately we started the movie early and blah blah blah. Okay, right now, I'm feeling quite annoyed because I'm going to watch a movie with my friends this Wednesday ('Deathly Hollows Part 1') and it's going to be straight after my last exam. And yeah whatever you don't need to hear about my dilemma. I'm excited though, above it all. I just checked and found out that the movie's actual name is 'Letters From Iwo Jima'. Same thing.

Anyway, as silly as it sounds, today's topic is about a 'zombie apocalypse'. Sure, I could be talking about other and probably more 'important' apocalypses like the whole '2012' thing. But I don't believe in it. Not that I believe in a zombie apocalypse, but both incidents could be possible. I just find the possibility of a zombie apocalypse far more interesting than the 2012 bluff. Well to start off, do you believe in zombies? Zombies probably first made an appearance in the hit music video called 'Thriller' by the legend, 'Michael Jackson' (R.I.P.). After that there had been loads of zombie movies and what not. Take 'Resident Evil' for example. It's not only a movie, but also a video game. It was from this movie/video game that I developed my fear of zombies. Sure, zombies probably don't exist. But what do you know, Science does.

In 'Resident Evil', zombies existed through some kind of virus made in some genetic research place thing that infected and turned many people (even animals) into man-eating, mindless creatures. That's not a very accurate synopsis, but it was all very scientific to me which made me think of its great possibility in the future. Think of 'Thriller', the dead came back to life. Now that is probably beyond scientific basis. But then there's 'Frankenstein'. Not so impossible now, huh. I once read this article with five reasons for a possible zombie apocalypse. Apparently half of the world's population is infected by this thing that can turn them into 'zombie-like' species and don't even know it. It's called 'Toxoplasmosa Gondii'. It sounded pretty scary and convincing to me. But maybe it's not even real.

Aha but 'Google' proves it, Toxoplasmosa Gondii is in fact, real (from research). I mean if Google says so, it must be factual right?

Thinking of a zombie apocalypse is almost as scary as thinking of the world ending in 2012, which is certainly not going to happen. Personally I find the zombie apocalypse scarier. I mean if the world ended in 2012 (which it won't) I'm thinking it would be sort of an 'immediate death' as I should say, whereas with a zombie apocalypse, there's the whole 'hide and seek' kind of idea going on, unless you try to kill them like in the movies. Besides, would you want to be fed on slowly and bit by bit, you feeling each and every bite as the zombies feast on you? I didn't think so. I mean it's not like it's actually going to happen, it's just that there's a huge chance. No big deal. Science is great, maybe too great that it can actually make zombies real. Although, who would ever be mad enough to want to provoke such a thing? Mad scientists still exist these days, I think. Do they? Probably hiding in some secret laboratory somewhere in the mountains of some country in Asia. (First picture that came in my head.) Almost everything's possible these days. All we need now is the invention of 'time machines'.

For the record, I didn't write this post to scare anybody (though I highly doubt it did). I'm just trying to make another point, just like in all my other posts. By the way, here's a link to that article with reasons for a zombie apocalypse that I read: http://www.cracked.com/article_15643_5-scientific-reasons-zombie-apocalypse-could-actually-happen.html. I'd say the writer of that article was quite clever and somewhat witty. That's probably just me, though. On the other hand, if a zombie apocalypse did happen someday, I seriously wouldn't know what I'd do. Probably fly to somewhere where they have a super safe base. Let's just hope I don't get eaten in the process.

Tomorrow: White Lies

Day 9: The Key To Happiness

Hello stranger,

I know, this was supposed to be yesterday's post. But I only had free time after 12:00 am. I was too tired and I couldn't concentrate with stuff, let alone write a post, so I went to bed instead. I realized that there are probably going to be more incidents like these in the future so I thought of writing 'Next Time' at the end of each post instead of 'Tomorrow'. Brilliant idea? Maybe. Not really. No, never mind then. I love writing everyday, except for last night. I was tired. Like really. Won't happen again, but no promises.

Okay, so today is 'happiness' day. Before I start, let me ask you: "What makes you happy?" Let that question ring out for about 10 seconds inside your head. It sounds like just a simple '1 + 1 = window 2' question but if you dig deep, you'll find that there are more things than you know that make you happy. Lots of things make me happy, apart from writing and music, another thing would be 'Hello Kitty'. I don't even care what other people think, I love Hello Kitty. She's the coolest cat in the world, even though I'm a dog person (edit: I'm a dog and cat person). It makes me happy that my laugh can (apparently) cheer people up, and it makes me happy that everyone I care about are in good conditions. I know that sounds cheesy, but cheese makes some people happy too. There you go.

But what really made me happy this year, is seeing 'Paramore' live for the first time. If you don't know who they are, I'm sorry but it's time to come out of your cave. I mean, they're only the greatest band ever. I'm not even just saying that because they're my favorite band. Okay maybe I am, but you'd say the same thing about your favorite band. Mind you, a member of another band called 'You Me At Six' said they're the "biggest band today". So, nothing personal. Just facts.

Anyway, moving on. Being happy isn't really something you can force to yourself. Unless I guess, you have to. But let's face it, the line "I love him/her, but if that's what makes him/her happy then I'm happy" is not really genuinely true when someone says it, is it? I mean it's the right attitude to have towards the situation, but do you think they really mean it? In my opinion, no, they most likely don't. Because I know that they're hurting inside, and they don't really have any other choice. I think it's just people's way of convincing themselves to accept some painful truths. On the other hand, I'm not saying that that's the case all the time. I'm just saying, I think it's weird, that statement.

Happiness, like love, comes in naturally. I mean there are some things that you absolutely can't stand but they make you awfully happy. Trust me, I know. And it's not really about having a tremendous amount of money either, maybe it is for some people. Really though, I highly doubt 'money' could make anyone eternally happy. Just to make it clear, I have nothing against rich people. Although if something like money did make you happy, then I don't see why you should care about anything or anyone else. If something makes you happy, so happy it almost seems unreal to you, then don't let it go. Let it grow in you. Yes, maybe that includes money too. But that'd mean starting up a business, or working all the time... Whatever.

So what is the key to being happy? Well it's only really a matter of being in the right place at the right time with the right people. According to the movie 'Night at the Museum 2', the key to happiness is physical exercise "doing what you love". Which I totally agree with. It's probably one of the funniest movies I've ever seen. Funny movies make me happy.

Tomorrow: A Possible Zombie Apocalypse

Day 8: The Society Against Gay People

Hello stranger,

Right now I have the biggest headache. I had two exams today and it was dead tiring. I was going to put off this post for tomorrow but I realized I'm going to be busy because my friend's coming over. Would you look at that, I have a life. A friend who, by the way, requested our topic for today. A very dear friend, I should say. And I love her to the very last drop of the ocean. Yes, that's deep.

So today's topic is, with no doubt, probably one of the biggest conflicts nowadays. Well, even back then it was still a pretty big issue. My thing is, I don't see why it is. Do you? If you do, would you be kind enough to explain it to me? I'm afraid I'm going to have to disagree with everything you say if you ever did try to explain to me your problem with gay people, though. However, everyone's entitled to their opinion, and I asked for yours, so I can't really blame you. If you're a person who strongly disapproves of the idea of homosexuality, then I might as well tell you now that everything that I'm going to be writing in this post are based on my own, sheer opinion. Which is, I'm for homosexuality. Not because I'm homosexual, which I'm not, though you don't have to be one to support the idea, and not because I have homosexual friends. I guarantee you that my posts are based on what I actually think. Which is really the whole purpose of this blog.

What is the big deal about homosexuality? Personally, I think homosexuals are great. Face it. They're one of the funniest people you'll ever meet. And no matter how much you dislike or hate them or whatever, if you were stuck in a room with them for at least a whole week, you'll surely grow to love them. I can bet my life on it. Unless of course, you're really not willing to make the change. Then you're not really worth bothering with. I still, at some point, have this tiny part inside of me, somewhere, that respects people who are indeed, against homosexuality. Probably somewhere deep, though. Very deep.

The truth is, from whatever aspect you look at it, homosexual people are still as normal as showering for hygiene. Okay, maybe I'm making a really broad generalization and probably a lot of people have been disagreeing and shaking their heads off the whole time since they started reading this. Some people have probably even stopped straight after reading the title. What can I say? It was requested, and I thought it would be a great topic. I told you I was for homosexuality. I didn't say I was unbiased. So I was just thinking and now I'm kind of worried that everything I'm saying are not really matching up together. If they don't, my excuse would be my state. Being too haggard. And probably also the constant distraction from my parents, and hearing 'U2' play from a distance who apparently is having a concert somewhere.

Back on track. The fact that the society makes such a big deal about homosexuality. Not even just homosexuality, I tell you, they make a big deal of everything. Maybe people's views on homosexuality could also be a result of the way they've been brought up, or they just simply chose to have that view. But the way I was raised (or more like what I chose to believe), homosexual people are just like everyone else, with a slight twist. Although they still feel the same things as us, see the same things, eat the same things, wear the same type of clothing... For all you know, your school principal could be gay. You're probably thinking: "Naaah." Either way, I'm just trying to make a point. So what's the big hassle? It's not like they run around trying to convert everyone like it's some type of cult. No, homosexual people are just like you, and me. And most of the time even more good-looking. That's probably also one of the reasons some people dislike them. If it is, COME ON. Seriously.

And mind you, just to make another point, just because someone's a Christian doesn't mean they're against gay people. Some Christians could fully support homosexuality and still be a Christian. Right? At least I think anyway. If it shouldn't be a big deal to society, why should it be more of a big deal to religion? But I'm not going to go there. I'm just saying, gay people don't have to be treated any less than what they deserve. No one does. I'm pretty sure I've talked about this in one of my other posts. Some people just need stop being shallow, suck it up, and chill out. Gay people are awesome. And I'm not going to tell you any different, not in this world, not ever.

Tomorrow: The Key To Happiness

Day 7: So I Heard You Hate School?

Hello Stranger,

I woke up rather early today because I figured I procrastinated a lot yesterday and I'm screwed for my two exams tomorrow if I don't take it seriously today, so I thought I'd sort my blog out first thing... Wow, my mind just went completely blank... I hate those moments, you try to think of something smart to say and nothing comes to you. I just got owned by my own brain. Damn it.

Today I decided to talk about school because I've been out of school for two days and I'm starting to miss it and I thought I'd take this chance to blab about it. And it was the first thing that crossed my mind. So, unless you've been living under a rock, you'd know that school is pretty much 'hell' for most students. In fact, 'school' these days is just a short term used for a 'social meeting'. Some people can't wait to go to school on a Monday to tell their friends the latest goss they found out on the weekend, even though they've probably already been talking about it on the phone. So they talk and talk and talk and talk the whole day; in class, recess, lunch hour, they never run out of things to talk about (excluding awkward moments).

Well, if I were to be brutally honest, school is really not a very fun place to be. Just stating the obvious. I mean I'd much rather be out with my friends watching a movie or what not. Who wouldn't? And my friends are partly the reason I go to school. Maybe the fact that I hate missing out on notes too. The 'catching up' bit, it's worse than having a zombie apocalypse. Not really, but you get my idea. So why do I go to school still? Apart from my friends and having parents that 'care'... Actually, I have no idea. I can't say it's for a promising future. It probably is for some people, not for me. I want to be a Musician after I leave high school (edit: not anymore). But we're not talking about that right now.

I once had this idea that schooling should just be an online thing, considering the amount of time students spend using the internet. With that, some students could go online and study their hearts out if they want to, and the others would be free to partay. That'd mean you wouldn't have to be somewhere early in the morning every weekday of your teenage life, you can just go in and out of studying. Obviously the people who want to get somewhere in their lives will engage to it no matter how much they hate studying, and the people who don't care, I'm not even going to bother with them. This way it'd be proven who actually deserves a good future and who doesn't. I would say it's like being 'home-schooled', except home-schooling has fixed times, does it? I wouldn't know. Well I'm not saying my idea's brilliant, it'd just be nice to have it as an option, I guess. Suddenly I just had another idea that it should also be like a social network too, so you can chat with your teachers and ask them questions and stuff. How cool would you be? Being on the teacher's 'Top Friends List', I bet at least one person would like that.

Just recently I asked my dad why people needed to study, then work later, if we're just going to pay taxes to the government, and then the government pays us to work, like the money's just going around. Why couldn't they just give us money and everything be free? Although money wouldn't really be of any use if everything was free would it. I didn't realize how stupid my question was until my dad answered: "Well, if no one worked and no one paid, where would we get our essentials from? Who'd make our clothes? Our houses? No one, because if everyone had money, no one would bother doing anything, everyone would just take and take. The Earth wouldn't be moving at all (figuratively speaking), it would just be a big ball of blob." The 'big ball of blob' part was added by me, I thought it was fit to add to the moment. What my dad said totally (and I mean really) shut me up. I seriously thought at that time I was asking a sensible question, I obviously wasn't. I could tell from his tone, it was as if I asked a question like "Why do we have to eat if we only gain weight?" See how stupid that question is?

Anyway, I guess school is not really that bad, is it? Some days, it is, indeed. But you still get to see your friends and bitch about people talk about stuff, plus, you learn an awful lot of some cool new things. And of course, there'd still be your favorite subjects, the things you surely enjoy doing at school, I know I have one. Besides, it will get you somewhere in life, it's to 'prepare you for the future'. So school? Yes, it sucks. But you're never too cool for school.

Tomorrow: The Society Against Gay People

Day 6: Today's Media

Hello Stranger,

I'm so happy I don't have an exam today. Gives me more time for my blog. Actually, I'm supposed to be still in bed right now but my mom woke me up and told me that she's going out, that'd mean I'm going to be alone in the house because my dad and my brother's gone to work. My eyes are still sore. But I'll endure anything for my blog. Yes, yes. I told you I have no life. Time for a coffee.

To tell you the truth, I wasn't sure how to start writing about 'The Media'. There's just so many things about it that really get to me, and most of it I can't even explain. Frustrating? I think so. But if I were asked what I personally think of the media, I wouldn't really say I'm against it, but I'm not happy with some of the things they do. What do I mean by "some of the things they do"? Well, if I asked you, what do you think of the media? Do you find the question as hard as I do? Or do you not care? Anything you answer is fair enough, I asked you anyway.

Okay, here's what I think. I think the media's a REALLY BIG influence to everyone. And by influence I mean good and bad. Let's start with the good stuff. No, let's start with the bad stuff. Has it ever crossed your mind that the media might just be the worst influence there is? Think of the things it does. It's really the image they portray. Get the picture now? They show things that are too good to be real. And I'm saying this about every aspect. Think about advertisements, some of the dramas/programmes, don't you ever wonder why almost every character is good-looking? Not that there's anything bad about that, I mean, good-looking characters really spice up the drama for some of us. But it just adds up to the idea of the media's unrealistic habit.

So I was thinking, and this new idea came to me just now. I figured it's like a 'Mary-Go-Round' thing. The media doesn't make dramas about not-so-perfect people because in a way it's also as unrealistic as having almost-perfect characters. There are hardly any dramas about someone falling in love with a completely imperfect person. I could think of some movies, and keeping 'Ugly Betty' in mind. But did it end there? Yes. It more or less, pretty much did. Why would dramas about not-so-perfect people be unrealistic? Because no matter what we do it's really quite hard to think that it's actually going to happen in real life. And why is that? We go back to the media. To the influence they've given to people. The image they've convinced most of us to believe as the 'ideal' image. Does my theory make sense?  Here: (1) the media portrays unrealistic images with almost-perfect people, (2) influence the audience, (3) they don't/hardly/try to use not-so-perfect images, (4) it would still appear to be unrealistic, (5) we go back to their influence. Yes? Well, it made much more sense in my head.

And what is this about 'vampires'? Yes, I'm talking about 'Twilight'. However "hot" you think Robert Pattinson is (a.k.a. 'Edward Cullen'), vampires still don't and never did sparkle. Just imagine how 'Dracula', the real vampire, feels. But then again, I can't really say I'm unbiased here. I'd say wizards and witches, yes, 'Harry Potter', could also be unrealistic but with no doubt, 'Harry Potter' beats 'Twilight' hands down. Besides, Robert Pattinson was in 'Harry Potter' first as 'Cedric Diggory'. I could go on about this for forever, but I think I'll save it for later.

Now we come down to the very few, but are good things all the same, 'good things' about the media. So the media makes dramas or shows with almost-perfect characters. They do however, most of the time, give a somewhat good portrayal of what 'life' is. It's not perfect, full of tears, laughter, confusion, and things we are yet to discover. It's a good thing that they at least make dramas with gay people involved. And besides, the media provides a great deal of amusement to us. I just wish people didn't get so caught up and influenced. Just think of the future generations, I don't even want to get started. It doesn't have to be like the way it is now, always remember to stick to what you believe is right. Really.

Tomorrow: So I Heard You Hate School?

Day 5: Practice Makes Perfect

Hello stranger,

My exam went well today, just thought I'd tell you before you ask. Saves you from all the worry you've been feeling inside. I actually left the exam early because I finished quite quickly. I'm not sure if that was a good idea, but I was quite excited to leave an exam early for the first time. Makes you feel smart. Don't even deny it, you know it's true. I also had this open earlier for a couple minutes because I couldn't think of how to start my post until I went to the kitchen, got some food, ate, did some other stuff, and now I'm finally here writing. Right now I'm feeling thirsty though...

Anyway, practice. When you learn something new you don't really 'learn' it until you take practice. This I tell you, is a fact. That is why teachers give homework. Homework is still a completely different story though, it just puts everyone in misery. Well, I was just using it for an example. My dad has been telling me lately that he wants to get me a piano tutor for some reason, and I keep telling him that I won't really be good at it unless we get a piano. He, of course, being the typical cheap parent, disagrees with me. But think about it, what's the point of learning if you don't even practice? How can I practice without a piano? Unless you really hate what you're learning then I'm totally with you.

So people say: "Practice makes perfect." Then there's the: "But nothing's perfect, so why practice?" Think about that for a moment... I actually learned this way back and I once said it to my friend and her mom overheard me. She said to me "Yes, that's true. But then where would you get yourself at? If you don't at least try you won't really get anywhere." Or something like that, I was 12 years old, I think. I thought my statement was clever, but what she said made a whole lot of sense. I know there are some things that we just can't get around to doing because well, we're lazy. At least I know I am. In fact right now I'm really feeling like a nap, but I choose to keep writing because I don't want to forget the stuff that I'm thinking regarding this topic.

As much as we know that nothing's perfect, we should still take into consideration that there are also such things as 'perfect scores' (which I hopefully get in at least one of my exams). Even things like a 'perfect place' or a 'perfect date' exists. Because after all, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. You could think a handbag looks absolutely amazing but other people could see it as complete trash. But that's not what this topic is about. This is about people who stop trying, or people who strive so hard for perfection. I should say myself that I'm quite the perfectionist. That's probably an overstatement though. I'm only really fussy about my handwriting. (Another reason why I cannot keep a diary, my handwriting distracts me.) And maybe other 'minor' stuff.

Let's start with people who stop trying. Some people say to themselves, "I'm probably not even going to do well anyway." or "I bet I'm totally going to mess it up." Well, if you keep telling yourself that then you probably are going to mess it up and not do well. It's only a matter of having the right attitude and having a positive atmosphere from the people around you. If you were surrounded by people crying and sulking that wouldn't really give you the support you needed now would it. On the contrary, there are the people who won't rest until everything's 'perfect'. I could be like that sometimes, but what's really bad about it? Well it's not really bad, it's just not a very good thing. In my opinion anyway. I think people who have an eye for perfection are not able to appreciate a lot of things because they have higher standards. This is where I'm different. But I'm not writing about me here.

Going back to the phrase 'practice makes perfect', although it is set in our minds that nothing's really perfect, we could try to make things in the level of perfection. We should know not to underachieve, or overachieve. Just do everything that we possibly can. I mean, if you really wanted something you'd work hard for it. You'd practice. Until you get there. Probably not perfection, but you'll get somewhere.

Tomorrow: Today's Media

Day 4: You and Other People

Hello stranger,

I was planning on putting this post on hold until later because I have to study for an exam (again) but then I thought I'd just do what I do best... Procrastination and cramming. Excellent for a future topic. Well it's not like it takes me hours to write a post, does it? I better pick up my pace then. See? This is another advantage of having a blog over having a diary. (Still have full respect for diary writers.) The fact that you can put your thoughts out in a very short time. I think writing takes a lot longer. Before you can finish writing a sentence, you've already forgotten what you're supposed to be writing next. I write slower than most people, and when I try to write faster my hand gets really sore. Which is why I think blogging is very handy.

Anyway, today is about you, and me, and others. So what do you generally think of other people? Do you go by stereotypes in terms of looking at people? I think going by stereotypes is fairly unavoidable. I'm not saying that it's not avoidable, I'm saying that some people try to avoid it, but it comes out anyway. And believe it or not, it turns out to be true most of the time. But stereotype or not, it still comes down to how YOU see yourself. Would you care if people ever labelled you? Do you care what others think of what you're wearing? What they think of you?

If I were to answer this question, I'd say it depends. Because you know you only really care about the things said by the people you value the opinion of. I mean if you found out that your best friend thought you had bad breath, that'd really get to you wouldn't it? If someone you really like only sees you as a friend and nothing more, there'd still be that tiny part in you that would get hurt no matter how hard you try to hide it. Although there are no doubt, some things that people may say that could really cross that boundary line. At those times, you won't really be able to stop it from getting to you. But what you can do is remind yourself that you don't live to impress anyone. You live because you were given the chance to. You only live once = 'YOLO' (unless you believe in 'reincarnation'). And life's too short to care about what people think.

I know, it's easier said than done. That doesn't mean you can't try. For me, I think it is very important to make your own mark. Being different is always good. People who say it's not are probably just jealous because they can't pull off something others can. I don't understand why some people have to try so hard to fit in. What's so good about fitting in? If you fit in with everyone else in the crowd what would happen to your individuality? You'd have none. You'd end up being 'just like everyone else'. I don't want to be like everyone else. Do you? Maybe some people would choose to. But I strongly believe everyone deserves to feel special in their own way. Don't let anyone else tell you different.

So that girl thinks what you're wearing is a total disaster, that guy thinks your hair is a total mess, why should they care? Why should you care? You don't live for anyone but yourself. I'm not implying for you to be a total rock of a person. All I'm saying is that, sure, some of the things that people say can hurt you sometimes, but that doesn't mean it's true, or that you have to beat yourself up about it. It means you exist. And people see you. It doesn't give you a reason to change who you are. When you know you deserve much more, take it. Don't think about anyone else. It's good to put yourself first sometimes.

Tomorrow: Practice Makes Perfect

Day 3: What Love Is/Could be/Could've been/Was

Hello stranger,

I realized that this is my third post and I've never even thought of asking: "How are you today?" Did you wake up with a smile on your face? Or on the wrong side of the bed? Personally whenever I wake up I would usually have that cranky look on my face. Still depending on the events of the previous night though. But do you ever get that feeling when you just want to sleep forever? I don't see what Sleeping Beauty was complaining about, sleep is good. Just like late nights. Priceless. Anyway, good morning (or afternoon, or evening, wherever you are).

So, what IS 'love'? The obvious answer: a word. Which is the truth, but it's not really the answer we're looking for is it. I wouldn't say that I know the answer to this question, but I know what 'love' is to me. Just like you should know what it is to you. First, think of the people you care about, or simply just anything you care about, and we'll go from there. To me, love is strong, yet more fragile than anyone would ever think. Something that needs effort, something that takes time. Love to me is being able to understand and be understood. Love is something more than 'being in a relationship' with someone. It's the ability to care for a person to the capacity of everything you are. Love is something special, but nowhere near perfect. Love will make you feel like the happiest person in the world. It will hurt you, tear you to pieces.

Love is something that you can't control. It pops in and out without warning. It's just there. Unless love potions actually exist, but that wouldn't really be 'love' now would it. So when you get your heart broken you can't really say "I'm never going to love again" because whatever you do it's going to come to you anyway. Have you ever been so broken you're scared to love again because you know how bad it hurts? These things do happen, and when it does, yes, it will hurt, and it will hurt like hell. But will you be able to get over it? Yes, you will. It will take longer than you want, but you will. You just have to work with it and tell yourself that you have to move on. And before you know it, you're falling again. Faster than you think.

But like I said earlier, love is not always about being in a relationship. There are different types of 'love'. Can you name them? There's the love for family, love for friends, your passions, materialistic love, love for your God... More things than you could ever imagine. This is where 'love' has lost it's meaning. Probably about 80% or 90% of people say "I love you" these days and don't even mean it. And 'love at first sight'? One of the biggest lies in the history of history. The way I see it, you can't fall in love at first sight with anyone at all. Never. Ever. Because you know in the end you only really fall for the person inside. I mean, they could be the most good-looking person on Earth but could have a rotten personality. Still attractive? I think not. It's probably best to be renamed as 'infatuation at first sight'.

Love has surely evolved in time. It's abused, completely misunderstood. People get together for money, other people get taken advantage of, it's absolutely sickening. I don't know about you but I'm sure you know what I mean. Love used to be something magical, but now it's only possible on TV or in the movies. Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury to have something work out just out for once? But we live in an imperfect world. Much more imperfect than we know.

Tomorrow: You and Other People

Day 2: Judgments and Assumptions

Hello stranger,

Ha, made it to second post. Looks like this blogging thing is going to work for me. In fact, I was excited to write today. Oh how did my History exam go? It went well, thanks for asking. I stayed up until 2:00 am last night this morning studying because my parents (sociable-than-thou) forced me to go with them to this 'party'. And no, it's not a party with flashing lights and half-naked people. I was with my parents and my older brother, how much more fun could that party have been? Shoot me. I would seriously have rather studied than go to that nightmare.

So as mentioned, today I'm going to talk about 'Judgments and Assumptions'. I was actually going to write about this topic yesterday for my first post but I figured an introduction would be quite a necessity. Now to start off, think to yourself... What is the first thing that pops in your mind when you hear the word 'JUDGE'? Personally, I think of lawyers. I think of court. I think of that loud 'Tap! Tap! Tap!' sound made by that little hammer thing or whatever it is (edit: 'gavel', apparently). I think of racism. I think of God. I think of today's generation. Which then leads me to thinking... Teenagers. Now I would be quite the liar if I said "I have never judged in my entire existence" wouldn't I? Mind you, I have judged quite a number of times. So I can't really say I hate judgmental people. That'd mean I hate myself. That'd mean I hate everyone.

I hate judgmental people.

That was a lie. Partly. I mean, for one, 'hate' is a very strong word. Which I might tell you, have lost it's meaning these days (once again, such topic should be saved for my later posts). But if you think about it, judgmental people... What do you think of them? I mean of course, nobody wants to be judged. I know you don't. I don't. I know that feeling when someone says something about you as if they've known you for all their life when really, they've only just seen you walk past them. Ridiculous right? Whether you want to believe it or not, everyone judges. Although, there are different levels of 'judging'. There are the people who judge you by the way you act, what you wore today, how your hair looked like, how you smell, your breath, and lots of other things. Oh, and let's not forget racism.

They do actually still exist, racists. I would've thought all the discrimination about skin color had ended after Abraham Lincoln issued the Emancipation Proclamation in 1862 (History, you finally came in handy), even though that was in America. But if you knew better, you'd know they're everywhere. Walking on the face of the Earth right at this very moment. I would say that my parents became slightly racist ever since we moved. My brother too. It's heartbreaking to actually hear someone judge a person because of their race right in front of you. Not to mention a family member. But I constantly remind them that "Whatever a person does depends fully on themselves, not on their race." Thankfully, it shuts them up.

Let's also not forget the most common type of judgment especially at this day and age. Judging a person on the outside. Ask yourself, have you ever judged someone based on their appearance? Size? Color? It's such a shame that some people 'hate' themselves to the point that they engage into self-harming because humans are just simply shallow. Have you ever stopped and thought of being someone else for once? To think of what it would've been like if you were different from who you are now? To be in someone else's shoes? Would people treat you different? See you in a different way? Have you ever thought of what that lady behind the counter is feeling? Maybe you have, maybe you haven't. Maybe you don't even care.

People judge. But do we really have to? No. Do we anyway? Yes. Commenting on someone's hair is considered judging. Although I'm not saying that there's anything wrong about commenting on anyone's hair. But do some people deserve to be put down because of the way other people judge them? Whether it be race, appearance, size, sexuality, beliefs or mentality, no, they don't. He doesn't. She doesn't. You don't. I don't. We don't.

Tomorrow: What Love Is/Could Be/Could've Been/Was

Day 1: My Purpose

Hello stranger,

So yesterday was supposed to be Day 1. Why wasn't it? Because my internet was too shit slow to load the page. Anyway today I'm going to talk about... Why I started this blog, basically. Well, why DID I start this blog? Is it possibly because I have no life? At the moment... No, I don't. In fact I'm supposed to be studying for a History exam tomorrow. But you know what they say, "CBF" (edit: "YOLO" now, actually). Ah, the joy of teenage life. Sure, I don't know much about life, but I do know that it sucks sometimes. Maybe most of the time. Maybe even more frequently than "most of the time". But you know, there's really no point in sulking about it. You can't really expect life to be better for you if you don't act on it. Hm, maybe I'll save that for a later topic.

On to business. You're probably thinking by now: "Oh god this is so boring." I don't blame you. But it's not like I created this blog for anyone's amusement. No one's probably even going to read anything that I write on here. But whatever, these posts are solely to keep me sane. Just writing for the hell of it. You know, there are a lot of some things other people can't express just by saying them. So they write about it. The things they can't tell anyone; their dreams, confusions, things that go through their minds... All this, is me. You could also be thinking right now: "Why can't you just write a diary?" Well, I'll let you in on a little fact here my friend. Diaries, are maybe well, cute and sentimental, etcetera, etcetera... But come on, writing on a blank book? Not only will it get your hands sore, but what happens when you lose it? When you get it wet? I'm not saying I'm against diaries. I have full and utter respect for diary writers, they are the extra-responsible and will-powered elites. Diaries just never work for me. And diaries are private, it wouldn't really be called a diary if you let your best friend read it would it? So is this blog a diary? No, seeing that it's public. Probably not. "What better way to share my private thoughts than to broadcast them on the internet?" - Olive (Easy A)

What motivated me to start a blog apart from having no life? That's actually quite an interesting question, given the fact that I have absolutely no idea what the answer is. About two days ago I watched the movie 'Julie & Julia' with my family. Well, I guess I didn't really 'watch' it, I more like 'casually-came-in-and-out-of-the-room-to-watch-every-three-minutes-when-I-was-supposed-to-be-studying'. So I can't really say I know the plot very well but for those of you who haven't seen the movie it's about a writer named 'Julie' who decided to write a blog about a woman named 'Julia' and something about Julia's cooking. A writer with a tragic life and a tragic job because no one would publish her book. "You're only a writer when someone publishes your book. Nobody wants to publish my book." - Julie (Not claiming that the quote is 100% accurate.) I've always loved writing, although I have to say this is the first time I'm writing a proper blog. But I guess I have bigger passions than writing, like music. But let's not go there for now.

I guess I'm saying that I started this blog because of the movie because I thought I'd engage into something else. Something new. To look forward to doing something everyday. To go into a new day thinking: "What time should I write my next post today?" Having random people read what I have to say, and knowing what they think. That is, if anyone actually became interested enough. Which would be nice. Anyway, I really appreciate you reading this, stranger.

Tomorrow: Judgments and Assumptions