Day 18: Two Thousand and Twelve

Hello stranger,

Okay, so maybe this isn't 'later' or 'tomorrow' but at least I'm finally getting on with the post right? Yes. Die procrastination. So how was your Christmas? Good? Mine was pretty okay, I didn't get what I originally wanted, but I got a new phone. And I'm loving it. I could write a whole post about my Christmas but I thought I could do that on my next post. Or maybe never. It's probably not even worth knowing about.

Today's topic is indeed, about the '2012 phenomenon' or in other words, apparently the year when it all ends. Or begins, as some optimists would say. Uh yeah... No. So why is the year 2012 such a big deal? To be honest, I have no idea. I mean does anyone even care about it? None that I personally know of. But someone out there might actually be praying their hearts out right now or preparing for this... Am I allowed to say 'hoax'? Of course. This is my blog. Problem? I mean no hating, I just like stating my opinion.

If you've never heard about such thing, don't keep reading. This will be a total waste of your time. Just live on and we'll see each other in 2013. Otherwise, it's basically just a rather 'rumored' apocalypse. It was predicted by the Mayans that the world and all existence will be wiped out in the year 2012 because it is the end of some calendar or something. I don't know. I didn't really do any research, so my words would be quite inaccurate. You might want to do some 'googling' if you want to know more.

Now before you go off panicking about the idea, let's first take into account that this isn't the first time that an apocalypse has been predicted. So how do we know that it's real this time? We don't. No one does. The Mayans? Oh yeah, definitely. Not to talk disrespectfully of them but, really? I'm sorry, I disagree. I strictly believe that this one could be just like one of those chain messages that could 'kill' you if you don't pass them on to others. I have probably died a million times not sending them.

The very main reason I chose not entertain this idea is because of the lack of proof. Or maybe I just don't want to believe it because I don't want to die at age 18. I'm far too young and I have plans for the future. Sort of. But I didn't waste most of my life at school just to die. They even made a movie about it (of course, called '2012') starring 'John Cusack'. In the movie the earth just started splitting in half out of absolutely nowhere and there were huge tides. In the end everyone died quite a number of people survived because of some base or a fortress kind of thing that was made in America (I think, I didn't watch the movie very well). Either way, so much for not making people panic. That fortress thing better exist and save many lives when the apocalypse happens. Well, IF the apocalypse happens.

In one of my previous posts, I talked about a 'zombie apocalypse'. That, I at least understand, could be highly possible, even though no one's really looking into it. I don't think. But this '2012' idea is everywhere. The internet, the media, the back of our minds... I can almost imagine people going on about it once we hit 'January 2012'. What a big surprise that would be. The said date of the actual apocalypse would be sometime in December 2012. That'd be quite a Christmas for some people. But I sure will be here on 2013, making excuses for my late posts. Like always.

Next Time: Out with the New, In with the Old?

Side Note

Hello stranger,

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I hope you're having a great holiday and I hope you got great presents. Take care always and God bless.

Yours truly.

P.S. I'll be writing about the next topic maybe later today or tomorrow.

Day 17: Friends Forever

Hello stranger,

It's been a while, again. I haven't had much time to write recently because I've been going out with my family these past few days. Also, I'll be starting my summer "job" (babysitting) tomorrow so I'll probably be really busy during the day and tired by the time I finish. I will still try to keep my blog updated though. Anyway, today was pretty upsetting because I found out that 'Josh Farro' and 'Zac Farro' (brothers), Josh the lead guitarist and Zac the drummer for Paramore, are leaving the band. If you're a Paramore fan, you'd know that they are a really huge part of the band. Not only because they're the lead guitarist and drummer, but because they have been in the band ever since it started. I still wish the both of them the best, though.

I guess that was a great way to start this post, talking about friends leaving, and meeting new ones. When you've known someone for a very long time, it really is hard to let go. This applies not only with friends, but also on a lot of different aspects. It seems, the more you get attached to someone, the more painful it gets when you know it's time to say goodbye. Especially when it is a permanent separation. But we know that we have to move on, and hope for nothing but good things towards that person. It doesn't mean that you have to forget them, because you don't and you mostly can't. Not when they have been a very significant part of your life. You just keep all the memories you had with them and live on. And hey, you get the chance to make new ones with the new friends you make along the way.

Friends, as much as family is, are a really important part of anyone's life. Our friends are the first people we run to when nothing seems to work out. You may expect them to say something to make you feel better, or maybe just knowing that they're there for you makes you feel more at ease. Sometimes you need them to tell you that everything will be okay, sometimes you just need them to listen. Whichever helps. Either way, what would our world be like if nobody were friends? It's almost unimaginable. Although I do understand that there are people who find it hard to get along with other people and prefer to be alone. I have nothing against that, but this post is about friends after all.

So is it true that when you're close to someone you'll be friends forever? It's very easy to say 'no', but after I gave it some thought, my answer has now changed to a 'maybe'. During my sixteen years of living, I have met people whom I've considered as one the closest friends I've ever had. But through time a lot of changes have occurred and now it's almost as if we never knew each other at all. It's such a pity. Losing someone that easy, or someone simply forgetting all the things you've shared together as though they never existed. So that's the partial 'no' to the question. The 'yes' part is still valid because there are still people that stick by you no matter what. However far the distance between you two is or however long you haven't seen each other for. Friends like that, are the friends that are worth keeping. I mean I know it's never easy to forget someone, but sometimes it's what you have to do to be able to move on.

Friendship is a very special bond between people. Just like all the other kinds of relationships, it shouldn't be abused in any way. It's a matter of trusting each other and making yourself worthy of that trust. Trust is probably one of the things that are easy to break, but takes almost a lifetime to repair. Being betrayed by a friend is a very heart-shattering feeling. If you value your friends, you'd be an idiot to betray that trust.

Next Time: Two Thousand and Twelve

Day 16: The Internet, No Big Deal

Hello stranger,

Well, well, it looks like my theory's finally broken. Okay I'm seriously stopping. These past few days I've been doing lots of random stuff, and I'm kind of worried that I'm losing my motive for this blog. If so, I apologize. But I do come and write once I've 'gathered my thoughts about the topic'. I will try harder though. To keep this blog updated. For the sake of my amusement. Or just because I have no life like that.

So the internet. What is it? HELLO. It's basically oxygen. No, it's air. And yes, there's a difference between 'air' and 'oxygen'. Oxygen is one of the components that make up air. Which makes air a mixture of different gases. Just in case you didn't know. Anyway, what is 'the internet' to you? Is it something you can't go a whole day without? Something you've never heard of? (Although you wouldn't really be reading this if you've never heard of the internet.) Or simply something of no importance to you at all? Let's start by evaluating the uses and benefits of the internet. A somewhat more mild approach to the subject.

The internet is a worldwide system that allows us to connect to different dimensions and networks, from computer to computer, or simply a device to another device which lets us explore things in a whole new level. (That's just my own unintelligent description of it, you might want to try researching.) To put it in a much simpler way, it's something that makes our lives a lot easier. Well, for some people. Personally, I'm one of those people who would say 'internet' as one of their hobbies. Even though 'internet' is not a verb, but a noun. It's basically my salvation when there's nothing else to do the rest of the world fails me.

I think the internet gives a massive benefit to the world's population. Not only does it help us stalk people connect with people we haven't seen in a long time, but also meet new people. It can also help us with tons of other things like work and school in terms of research and other aspects, to spend your whole life some free time on, and discover and learn new facts and ideas. However, like most things, the internet, when abused, can also turn into a total nightmare for our younger generation to grow up with. As much as the internet has its own 'pros', it also has its 'cons'. Nothing is perfect after all.

It's true that the internet have a lot of great sites for learning and what not, but there are also the 'not-exactly-illegal-but-still-not-safe' sites. Or simply just sites that are not supposed to be visited by the young ones. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. I'd say it, but I like to keep my blog clean, thank you very much. I mean I'm not implying that the existence of those websites should be discarded, because I know that some people enjoy those kinds of websites. I'd explore that aspect more in depth but I'd go completely off track. All I'm trying to say is that it shouldn't be too exposed in the public, the least they could do is ask for membership or for payment... Whatever, anything to keep other, much less desperate (and younger) people from encountering their websites.

A good thing about living in a modern world though, is that even though 'unsafe' websites exist, there have been softwares that are made to protect the users, and our computers and other devices. Which costs, of course. But it's a great way to surf the internet in a carefree manner. I always wondered why the verb for using the internet is 'surf' rather than 'walk' or 'run' or 'swim'. I supposed that would be weird, but it was just a thought. In summary, the internet is really a great thing. It's just a matter of how you use it, just like everything else.

Next Time: Friends Forever

Day 15: Underestimations

Hello stranger,

Once again, my theory proves. I should really stop it with the theory thing. You're probably suspecting that I'm doing it on purpose (which I'm totally not). I just have nothing else to do, and my internet has forbidden me to do all the other stuff that I usually do before blogging. In short, we've exceeded bandwidth. Again. And it sucks. At least I know writing on here would keep me sane for another couple of days. Well, the rest of the month.

Say, have you ever been underestimated before? Someone looking down on you, thinking they know so much better than you? Yeah, everyone has. Or at least most people have. Although you can't really say that you've never judged someone in that way. I mean some of us try not to, but sometimes we just can't help it. And like any other form of judgment, it's no good. Being underestimated is probably one of the worst feelings you could ever feel. It makes you feel so little, like you're worth nothing, that there's nothing you can do. And even when you try not to think too much of it, the fact that people think very low of you just brings you down to ground zero.

If you feel very underestimated by friends, adults, other people, or even family (yes it's possible), the best thing to do about it is one, to not let it get to you. Especially when you know you're capable of more things than they think. Two, always keep in your mind that you have nothing to prove to anyone. As long as you know what you are able to do, what others think means little. In fact, nothing. And three, don't show off. I mean come on, no one likes show offs, and there's quite a lot of them around already. But really, what does one get from showing off? Fame, temporarily, maybe. Friends, plastic ones, maybe. The ones who only make friends with you because you have something that could benefit them. Like the ones on chick flicks. Classic.

I can say I've been underestimated quite a lot of times. By people from school, people from the neighborhood, family... And I know how it feels. But to be honest, I don't mind at all. Because I know one day they can eat all their words when I prove to them how much I'm worth, and how great I'll become at what I do. But of course, that wouldn't be my whole motive in life, because if you spend your whole life trying to please someone, then what will there be left for you? Before you know it, it's already too late. And no, it's not true that "it's never too late" because people die. So yes, there's a limit. That's just my opinion though.

Anyway, the whole point of this post is, never letting things bring you down. Not anything. I mean I know that doesn't change the fact that it could still hurt, but that doesn't mean it ends there. There are so many things that matters more than people's pointless comments, it's just up to you if you choose to entertain them or let it go in one ear and out the other. Remember that whenever something seems to keep pulling you down, just keep on getting back up. That's what your legs are made for. To walk on and keep going forward, not looking back. Because you don't have all the time in the world.

Next Time: The Internet, No Big Deal

Day 14: Why Good Things Come To An End

Hello stranger,

So I've finally settled with writing 'Next Time' at the end of each post instead of 'Tomorrow'. Now it doesn't matter if I write the very next day, or ten years later. Although my theory is still going strong with my point about the 'Tomorrow' thing. Maybe writing 'Next Time' will mean I'll be able to write every single day. Like today. I wrote 'Next Time' at the end of yesterday's post, and here I am today writing again. Why am I even making such a big deal about this right? Did I mention I was a fussy person? Yeah, that should cover it.

Moving on. We all know that the human population is somewhat a very ungrateful bunch. We complain about this, complain about that, we often wonder: "When does it ever get easier?" Or "Why me?" And when all else is falling apart, we wonder why good things indeed, come to an end. The people we love eventually leaves us, they die, the people you know becomes the people you knew, or simply your favorite drama comes to a finale. I can't say for sure that I have the most accurate answer for this question, but I do have an answer. Did you ever stop and notice that whenever there's something good, there would always be something else along the way that will ruin it? If not, change it completely? Think about it, it applies to every aspect. See?

Nobody always have it easy, not even celebrities, no one. No matter how hard that is to believe. I don't understand why some people go on about how hard their life is. That person could be you, or me, or someone else. But as hard as it may seem for us, there's always someone out there who has it harder than we do. It's now just a matter of what attitude we choose have towards it. Whether you carry on, or sit in your room and whine about everything in your life. It's your choice, it's always been. I mean sure, I have no idea what everyone's going through, and I'm not going to say that I know how it feels because I don't, but there's definitely something you can do about it.

Things come and go for a reason. It could be to bring something in your life that would give you a really big realization, or something much more simple. But why do good things come to an end? I asked this question to a person when I was going through a rather hard time a few months ago. He said something along the lines of: "Because if sadness didn't exist neither will happiness. If there was no sadness we wouldn't be able to appreciate what 'happiness' really is, it would lose its meaning. If everyone was always happy, there'd be no such thing." And there's the answer I was looking for. Probably not what I expected, but it made so much sense to me, and it helped me move forward. I also realized that it's actually almost too hard to imagine what it would be like if everyone was happy. Everyone would just be a block of plastic-like creatures. In short, nothing. Like having no emotions.

I always like to think that when everything's at its worst, there's something good that will come of it. Maybe not straight away, but it will come. Sort of like a really slow cycle. You do the math. It's just like what they say, "When a door closes one more opens." That should be enough to keep at least one person going right? Giving up is not an answer. You have the freedom to act. Use it. It may not give the greatest outcome, but never stop trying. You'll see that it's worth more than you could ever realize.

Next Time: Underestimations

Day 13: Our Childhood

Hello stranger,

I swear to my whole life I did not deliberately leave this post for days after I wrote my last one just to prove my whole theory about the 'Tomorrow' thing. But, I told you so. I've just been really lazy busy these days. Last week of school and all. Actually I'm supposed to be at school today for the whole 'End of Year Ceremony' thing. But I couldn't be bothered going. Good student. Now I'm on my parents' bed finally writing a new post. Sorry for the wait. Ha, as if.

Anyway, how much do you think you can remember from your childhood? What's your earliest childhood memory? Mine would be when my mom had to put earrings on me when I was little so people would know I'm a girl. Quite embarrassing. But then again, what from our childhood isn't. So I'm kind of writing this post because I think it's very important to make people see how big the change occurring today is. I mean I know change is bound to happen. This is a growing world after all. It's the way that our world's changing that we need to take notice of.

Don't you think things were much better when we were little? When the only things you cared about were your toys, when you didn't have to think of what to wear for the day because your mother does it for you, when the only important boys in your life were your father and your brother, when you didn't have to watch what you ate, when the 'Tooth Fairy' was real, when you wrote letters to 'Santa', when it was okay to cry in public, and when the world was a big magical place of good things.

But all of those things started to expand as we grew older. We realized that there are more important things we could care about, that what you wear for the day makes a huge difference on how an individual thinks about you, that you will meet other boys apart from your father and your brother, that you need to watch your weight because that's how most people will judge you, that the Tooth Fairy doesn't exist, that Santa was really 'St. Nicholas', that nowadays crying could be interpreted by some people as a way to seek attention, and that the world is a very distorted place.

I guess the things that we learned along the process of growing up also have benefits for us. Well for one, they can get us jobs. Without literally speaking though, yes, the changes these days are not all that great, but some of those changes are for the better as much as the others make our lives a living hell. What I really don't understand though is the idea that, why did things have to change this way?

What way? That way. To your right. Yeah, keep walking.

In all seriousness, don't you ever wonder how it came to this? To what? To that, over there. Whe- No. I'm not going to start with that again. Do you believe that a person's character can be derived from the environment they grew up in? I must say that I strongly believe in this theory, regardless of how true it may seem or not. Although I'm not forcing the idea on anyone. But we know that everything these days are based on our surroundings, or just everything in general.

Our childhood is a great influence to what or who we are now as much as anything else is. It helped to shape up the person we want/wanted to be, chose to be, or were forced to be. One's childhood may not be as great as another's, but what's more important is that we learn from it, and try not to let it affect us in the future. The 'childhood' is supposed to be a great memory isn't it? Full of false imaginations and beautiful perceptions of different things. Do you wish it stayed that way?

Next Time: Why Good Things Come To An End

Day 12: If I Were Blind

Hello stranger,

Funny because on my last post I actually wrote 'Next Time' instead of 'Tomorrow'. I was so convinced that I'd end up procrastinating again. But here I am writing today, which was tomorrow yesterday. Fail. I bet if I write 'Tomorrow' at the end of this post I won't be able to write for a day or two again. How pathetic is that? Well I guess it depends on the topic I'm writing about... I mean if the topic doesn't excite me all that much I obviously won't feel as enthusiastic and won't be able to write a lot about it. While we're on the subject, I can officially say that yesterday's post was my least favorite. I don't know why I chose that topic, I guess I just needed to think of one quickly and boom: 'White Lies'. Blah.

For today's topic, I started thinking of 'what ifs' and the first thing I thought of, as odd as it may be, was being blind. And in this post, I'll share with you the things that rushed in my head as soon as I thought of the word 'blind'. It's funny because I keep on typing 'bling' instead of 'blind'. Well it wouldn't be so bad to be a 'bling' either, hanging over someone's neck or whatever. Simply exquisite. Anyway, how do you think you'd feel if you were indeed, a bling blind? Sorry I always ask questions like these before actually writing about the topic, I just thought it's nice to make the audience think by using rhetorical questions.

If I were blind, it'd be of course, a sad thing, but somewhat good too. Why is it a good thing? Well... Actually I might start with why it would be a sad thing. They're obvious reasons, but it wouldn't hurt to point them out. Being blind would be sad because you won't be able to appreciate most of the beautiful things around you. For me, being blind could be one of the worst because I like to take inspiration from the things I see around me, I like to appreciate color, and I like to see it when I'm able to make someone happy. But there are also the more selfish reasons like not knowing what you look like and worrying if anyone will ever like you, or not being able to see a good movie. Scratch selfish. I say dumb reasons.

But why would it be a good thing? Well to start off, take a good look around you. The things around us these days aren't really as pleasant as they used to be, are they? At least if I were blind, I don't have to see the ugly things happening around me. I'd have no reason to judge someone from the outside, because when I like someone it'd be because I like them from the inside. I'd be able to see the goodness in people, regardless of how they look. I mean sure, being blind is one serious disability, but if you think about it, it wouldn't be all that bad. Especially when you're sick of all the judging, like I am. I'm not saying that I wish I was blind, I'm saying that blind people have that advantage. And they're quite lucky for it.

I know some people make fun of or take advantage of blind people. I'm not even going to tell you that it's wrong. You should already know how wrong it is. Being able to see is a blessing, there's no doubt about that. So embrace it. Appreciate everything that you can do, because there are a lot of people out there that are not even half as able as you. The one thing that they surely have though, is faith. Now you don't have to be religious to have 'faith' in something. Yes, they are disabled, but they don't give up, and they try to see and enjoy life as it is for them. That's something that most of us don't understand. We complain about our lives all the time, and only start to appreciate something when it's gone. I know that's such a cliché, but it's so true. Don't you think?

Tomorrow: Our Childhood

Day 11: White Lies

Hello stranger,

Damn. I know, I know, I procrastinated for ages. Four days I think, how shameful. I mean I know it's probably like not even a big deal to you people but it kind of is to me, no hard feelings. I just finished my last exam two days ago and there's just something about the holidays that make you procrastinate on all the good things. What a bad excuse... I tried. I was basically on 'Tumblr' and 'Facebook' the whole time, and my brother got out a stack of DVDs from the store and it was basically 'movie heaven' for me. What better things could you waste your time doing right? I feel unfaithful to my blog.

So to get on with our long procrastinated postponed topic, let's start with a simple question: What do you know about lying? Or liars for that matter? Everyone lies. That's a fact. Liars, they're everywhere. Some people lie for their job, some people lie for other people's sake, some people lie for the better, and some people lie just because they can. Lying is indeed, not a very good habit. You know what they say, "Liars go to hell." Although I never really believed it. Okay I did, when I was little. My parents used to tell me that as a strategy for good morale. Did it work? Maybe. If it was true, it'd mean we're all going to hell. I wouldn't really know. But I highly doubt it.

What are 'white lies' for then? White lies are lies used to keep someone from being upset by the painful truth. Some people might prefer to know the truth than get told a lie, and I have nothing against that. White lies, however, are usually only 'minor lies'. Like when someone's looking very tragic and they ask you how they look and you say "Gorgeous darling". Would you do any different? I didn't think so. It is, still up to the person though. I mean if you're a horribly blunt person who prefer saying "You look awful" than letting the other person feel beautiful then it's your choice. But for all we know, they could look awful to some people and look absolutely gorgeous to others. Because beauty is still in the eye of the beholder in the end.

If you lied about saying you love someone for the sake of not hurting them, would that still be called a 'white lie'? No, it wouldn't. Because the person will still get hurt one way or the other. In those situations, I advice you always tell the truth. Lying about your feelings about someone could be the worst possible lie. And probably the most painful too. I'm not saying that white lies can never hurt anyone, because it could, in little ways. But it's still a different kind of lie. If you know what I mean. Lying isn't really that big of a deal until you make it one. Actually, it depends on whatever you lie about. I would say white lies are the most commonly used lies. Every single day.

Yes, that makes everyone a liar. White lie or not. Is lying a sin then? That, I don't know. I could go all religious on you right at this very moment but I choose to keep calm and blog on. We'll shove all the religious questions and things in one post. If they fit. Anyway, the point is, lying could be so wrong, yet it could be interpreted in a very harmless way. White lies never mean to hurt, hence being called 'white lies'. It's okay to lie sometimes, as long as you know what you're doing, I guess. I suppose there are much bigger things to talk about other than today's topic, but oh well. And I know I sounded confident on my statements about 'lying' in this post, maybe even too confident. Feel free to disagree. But what could you possibly disagree on? Tell me I'm wrong.

Next Time: If I Were Blind